An Awakened Life: Trials and Tribulations*
By Douwe Boschma
Our soul life is one of great purity, one of knowing and of freedom. When we are living from this type of consciousness then we no longer discern between an inner and an outer life. There is simply a “being beyond being” in a freedom that seems to have no any beginning and no end.
It is important to note that our emotions, thoughts and instincts stand apart from these two types of consciousness even though they have everything to do with them. These three are the receptacles for either soul induced impulses or for ego induced impulses.
When we stand in the soul consciousness, which is pure freedom, then our emotions, thoughts and instincts, seem to resonate in full harmony with our inner realization. There is no place for negative or fatalistic thoughts and emotions because they are subdued by this total freedom. However, when we stand in our ego consciousness which is pure captivity, then our emotions, thoughts and instincts fully resonate with that.
Let’s look further at these three.
With a soul consciousness our Emotions are free from egoism and fear because there is nothing to have or to fear when we lean on this freedom within. One is filled with compassion rather than with egotism. One will rather care for the other instead of manipulating the other and heal the other instead of hurting the other instead of working some personal and tainted agenda.
In clear soul consciousness our thinking becomes ordered and free. We will simply see the opening and the solution to all our problems. Within this consciousness of freedom our perspectives change from being in the dark to being in the open. We can think, work and talk from this perspective in such a way that others resonate with it. They will see, understand it and feel its magnitude while we talk of it. They will take glimpse of our perspective and see the logics of what is said, which often is experienced as some kind of revelation.
Standing in our soul consciousness our instincts are instincts that enable us to make those choices that will open this freedom further. We instinctively avoid all which closes us off from this consciousness of freedom and we instinctively follow what opens it. We are neither subjected to involuntarily sexual behavior and urges for example. Not meaning those urges don’t exist but they just don’t live us anymore.
When our emotions, thoughts and instincts are no longer subjected to our ego but subjected to our soul then they are no longer subjected to self-centred lapses into the likes as greed, pride and envy. Those even turn into their opposites in the form of generosity, humility and goodwill, because the source that is feeding them now is no longer the limited and limiting ego but the limitlessness of the soul.
Speaking/ teaching/ creating
The blessing of this is that speaking, thinking or creating in any kind of way from the limitlessness and borderless consciousness of the soul will work straight on the instincts, thoughts and emotions of the listeners or viewers. It will harmonize these 3, lifting them to a point of new insights. This eventually calls up conflict in the person but this is a conflict between their soul and ego that end up in a fight over the property of the instincts, thoughts and feelings. The ego is tricking these 3 by entering while the soul is calling these 3 to open up. The soul namely does not enter by will or force, but by invitation!
When we live in accordance with our soul then our life will change accordingly on all levels. Conflicts in ourselves are solved but that will not be the case when it concerns conflicts with others. Only the nature of the conflicts changes. Those conflicts will namely no longer be between your ego and the ego of the other person but between your soul and the ego of the other person. In this we should let our soul speak without letting our own ego come in the way, because the ego of the other will immediately respond fiercely if it gets a chance, to subdue that nagging voice of the soul.
We will lose friends and we will find friends. The same may happen with relationships. People that can’t resonate with this type of universal love while they are somewhat open to it will experience it as a large confrontation. They feel it as too painful to have contact with us because we are always buggering them with themselves. That without even trying it or talking about it. Our presence and way of dealing with our selves and others will be enough to call up reactions. Our presence will add as it were a new impulse in the instinctive, emotional and mental life and awaken a little of the consciousness of eternal freedom. Opening their emotional, intuitive and mental door to a small crack which is not always very much appreciated because it is confronting having to see the cobwebs that are spun by the ego while that is exactly what happens when the door opens. It can bring out the worst in people. Others that vibrate more on a soul level with you will automatically come on your path.
Others may have their doors open on a crack already and when our door is opened wide it will open theirs wide too. It will suddenly overwhelm them instinctively, emotionally and mentally. They may be lost in it and seek refuge in us, trying to take us on as their guru or leader to find order. Only one thing can be done here and that is to minimize the contact until they have gained enough consciousness on their own. It is best not to lead but to feed what they need! Nothing more nothing less. The words: “be your own guru” applies to others as well in letting them be their own guru too.
Confusion of love
Other reactions are that people may confuse our pure openness and universal love for personal love. They may fall in love with us because that is what they associate the feeling with and they are close with that but the distinct difference is that it is not personal but universal.
You will understand others quicker. There isn’t a hidden agenda anywhere. You will spot ego products like lies and cheating from a mile, and the same counts for psychological defects, and problem areas but positive sides too of course. You simply see what it is with this person. My advice would be very sparingly with sharing what you see. Rather don’t share at all. Depending to the other this will most likely bring about conflict because they try to resolve it with their ego while they should resolve it with their soul.
Soul brothers and sisters
An other situation is that we may come across others that have their door wide open or partially open but at least open enough to see their own path and progression as an individual conquest. These people will enrich each other. They can be together in the limitlessness of the soul and experience this limitless within each other, which is the most beautiful thing. If we meet such people in our lives then they help you along on our path while we help them along on theirs. Those are connections to value deeply.
There are obviously many other situations that you will end up in for sure, but these seem to be the most general ones which you may recognize and hopefully help you on your way.
I am not sure to how many this seems like complete gobbledygook but those that catch on to it will hopefully benefit from it. Others may laugh. Which is permitted of course.